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Am I Even Here

by J. Coursey Willis

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“Am I Even Here” represents someone who has been on the move a lot in their life and has a conflicted relationship with love. This song is a tribute to a lover that was always with this person, no matter the distance. It’s not nihilistic, it’s just curiosity dancing in an empty gym with a half broken heart and an old understanding of what love is supposed to be.

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I’ve been walking down a memory.
Left the world back on my bed.
Screaming silently through the chimney.
Blowing smoke out of my head.

You were on the road
even when you weren’t there.
I spent the best of my years on the run,
but I took you everywhere.

When all the years meet up,
for the marquis sign… goodbye.
I will close my eyes and lift my cup
and I’ll muster one last sigh.

You were on the road
even when you weren’t there.
I spent the best of my years on the run,
but I took you everywhere.

Now the street lights serenade us
as my headlights return the salute.
Our intentions are sure to beat us
to the punch that we left in June.

Sitting here, staring in
at my thoughts swirling round my fear.
Am I even here?
Am I even here?
Am I even here?
Am I even here?
Is there anyone even here?

credits

released December 23, 2022
J. Coursey Willis: Vocals, Guitar
Island Styles: Guitar
Scott Von Ensign: Bass
BJ Kerwin: Drums

Song written by Jack Piatt, J. Coursey Willis
Produced by Island Styles, J. Coursey Willis
Recorded September 2021-August 2022 in one of the most historic residential buildings in Washington, D.C. and an old cork factory hidden away in Baltimore, MD
Mixed by Island Styles
Mastered by Island Styles
Artwork & Design by J. Coursey Willis
Photography by Jack Piatt

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Described as “The imagined child of Jim Morrison and Alanis Morissette,” J. Coursey Willis is an alternative rock figure, known for poignant lyrics and a brooding sound. He explores themes of addiction, despair, heartbreak, and tragedy. With a voice akin to Eddie Vedder and Layne Staley, fans appreciate his introspective songs for their nostalgia, raw honesty, and beauty amidst the darkness. ... more

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