Missing October

by J. Coursey Willis

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released May 31, 2015

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J. Coursey Willis Stevensville, Maryland

J. Coursey Willis creates grungy alternative rock built on an acoustic foundation with elements of blues delivered with regret-less howling soulful vocals.

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Track Name: Walk On
Heaven tells him there’s an angel
Sent to help him with his pain
But this guilt trip ain’t getting longer, it seems
Let alone all his mistakes

Screams fill this room with laughter
After the bodies all hit the floor
He once believed that he needed, he wanted
But he don’t want an angel anymore … he said

Walk on by me
Walk on down the road
Walk on by me
But before you go, I’d like you to know
Heaven sent you too damn slow

Sitting on his porch head in hands
He knows damn well he’s lost his torch
Long ago a young child, once sweet and mild
Now it seems that father’s got bad intentions, he’s got infections
And the day comes, he won’t go home again … he said

- Chorus -

If it burns hurt into your mind, well I guess I’m doing just fine!
If it burns hurt into your eyes, well I guess I’m doing just fine!

- Chorus -
Track Name: Fools
Mama, I’m sorry that you came
You had to see this wreck of a man in shame
And father, well I’m sorry I let you down
But it’s the only way that I know how ... you see

I’m here to hurt you and I’ll see it through
At least that’s the only thing that I know how to do
Truly and see how I make due
Is to make all of the others feel that they are fools

And brother, I’m sorry I bruised your face
I tore down your walls out of my own disgrace
And sister, I’m sorry that you’ve never seen
My face is twisted from all of the screaming ... you see

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Hey girl, I’m sorry I caused you pain
I know the words hurt like needles in your veins
Amy, well I’m sorry ‘bout all these scars
I see the mirror cuts and holds like prison bars ... and now

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Track Name: They Still Follow
Here you see me run through the fields under moonlight at midnight
Trying to free myself from the demons, they are always biting
See this soul on my sleeve, ragged from valid attempts to flee
But they still follow me yeah, yeah how they still follow me

They still follow, now they still follow me
What else can I be as long as they still follow me?
They still follow, yeah they still follow me
How else can I breathe as long as they still follow me?

Here I run dirt road under feet, will they follow me to my grave?
... My final resting place
All the years spent countless times wondering what was in line for me
But you see, they still follow me

They still follow, now they still follow me
What else can I be as long as they still follow me?
They still follow, I cannot be free
How else can I breathe as long as they still follow me?

They still follow, please set me free
Long eternity, as they still follow me
Oh the more I plea, no they still follow me
They’re still inside of me, inside of me

Still follow, still follow, still follow, no they still follow me!

For eternity, down onto my knees, they’re inside of me
No they still follow me
Track Name: Rain
Please let it rain today, my skin is so burned now
Cover me like a blanket covers her
Blue skies just go away, watch the birds all congregate
And let these waves break down this cell
And pull me back from hell

Its crowded in my head sometimes
It feels like, I’m already dead
Its crowded in my head sometimes
So take me, and lay me back down to bed
Please let it rain

The same old place, but it’s awful cold
Footsteps spread down this dead end road
Locked doors all surrounding me, I don’t know where I should be
So let these chains break down this cell
And pull me back from hell

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I told you that I didn’t really know
Which way that this dirt road goes
Bury me in another damn scene
Speak the words that you really mean
Only one of us just walks away
The other one’s left in a goddamn grave now
Pull the trigger don’t you ever let it linger
And lay my head on this concrete pillow

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Track Name: Save Me
Long ago, trampled under foot unknown
So slow, we buried these bad memories
Now I cave, under pressure from your mind
So save me, so I don’t have to suffer please

You go and you can look away one more time
But once you’re gone my sanity flees ... and I need it

Can’t you see it?
Look at these eyes and study what’s inside
See I needed you
But you looked away, look away one more time
Don’t cry me a river, because this river done run dry
I won’t find my way back home
If you can’t save me from my own mind

Sad face, cripples me in my place
A head of guilt and thoughts, they still remind me
That day, I laid in wait for the dead
To take away, take me from my mind again

You go and you can look away one more time
But once you’re gone my sanity flees ... and I need it

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Track Name: Inside Me Now
Remember that road that you found me on?
What were you looking for?
Did you find the one, and only one?
Or was it just another broken door?
Did you see that tree with the hole beside her?
It's where I used to go, and it's where I lost my soul

And I'm telling you to please keep moving on
‘Cause I'm stitching up all that I've got wrong
And I'll find myself someday

I'm not giving up just yet
But would you take my hand?
Show me where this long road ends
And I just hope you’ll understand
That I'm doing the best I can
With all of these untended partial threads
Your broken heart, you’ll find instead
But you're all inside me now

I keep fighting with these ghosts in the mirror
They haunt me through the dead of the night
This old room that I can't see clearer
Well I'll walk you through, but I never turn on the light

And I'm telling you to please keep moving on
‘Cause I'm stitching up all that I've got wrong
And I'll find myself someday

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